As I was looking in my pantry today for snacks to pack for the pool I realized something-
I am that mom who worried about breast milk versus formula.
I am that mom who bought store bought baby food in jars and also made my own.
I am that mom who considered cloth diapers for about a millisecond and decided disposable was best for me.
I am that mom that read all the pre-pregnancy, pre-birth, your baby’s first, toddler years, terrible twos, three isn’t your friend, and now a plethora of other parenting books in hopes to find “the” answer to all my questions.
I am that mom that tried the “cry it out” method but also rocked my oldest to sleep until she was 3 ½ years old (insert silent gasp here).
I am that mom that tried the sticker chart, chore chart, and about every other behavior modification system out there.
I am that mom that worried incessantly about vaccinations and yet chose to vaccinate.
I am that mom that eliminated red dye and every other potentially dangerous and impending chemical that could be attributing to behavior from my children’s diet just to discover it didn’t make a difference either way.
I am that mom that spent an exuberant about of dollars on pressed fruit that mimicked fruit roll ups so that I felt justified in giving them junk food.
I am that mom that did not dilute the fruit juice, but yet my kids prefer water- oh the irony.
But I am also the mom that gave up on all of that stuff too. I realized just today how silly all of the energy I poured into worrying about all of that stuff was and is such a waste. The question I was faced with as I stood at my pantry door was this- “do any of these decisions make me a better mom?”
The answer is simply – NO.
I am not better than anyone or vice versa. I get the chance, one chance, to be the best mom I can be and my delight is to show my kids the same grace and unconditional love that is given to me by God. And that doesn’t come in a box of fruit snacks or on the pages of a parenting book. I am imperfect and my flaws are great but God’s love covers it all.
So tonight, I will be serving dinosaur shaped chicken nuggets and macaroni from a box that has powdered cheese and proudly call it dinner. Why? Because I.am.that.mom!
Scriptures to Ponder:
“But God demonstrates His own love toward us, in that while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.”